SELF LOVE IT IS

U know i always believed that I’ll be able to run away from this in a way that all my pain and trauma will be left far behind me.

and boss didn’t i ??

But the moment it hit me that you can’t win a marathon with one leg you have to be in one piece and when i turned back i realized i was neither near finishing point nor the start i was in a middle of nowhere.

It took a lot of courage and energy to channel all that was left of me in one single person , you may have done that mistake too. It’s either to avoid current rush of so many emotions that you focus it on one or you feel numb scrolling through life endlessly in a loop.

I thought venting through one target will heal me in a way but it’s an illusion which you love while it last but when the night ends and you wake up in a hope of a sunshine all you find is a cluster of fog straining over your head like a giant elephant’s foot.

In next stage you find yourself hovering around collecting pieces like some crazy kid running in circles finding yourself in a same spot over and over again trying to solve a puzzle which had no sense.

How to break this chain ?

You don’t have to find any answers , your prime concern is to find a way out of this bustle of marathon that you’ve created , it doesn’t even exist.

You may think you have to go back and start from the beginning , let me tell you something “You can start over anytime you want , what are you waiting for , what’s stopping you ??”

You don’t actually need anyone to listen to you , hear your thoughts that keep gaslighting you , calling you coward in every language , fight back honey.

Worrying over a gone cause will only bring you pain , instead accept the past as it is and treasure the memory as last gift.Don’t savor sorrow as wound of trauma to remember it constantly , let it all in .

Once you learn the trick of understanding what you really are you find out you were never in a hassle it was all your mind , just breathe in , relax , take social breaks , have some me time , do what you love the most , feel what you really feel , treat yourself right.

Nobody was responsible for the site that i was in

i realized one day , juice of happiness prevail within me

from that second till today,

i never asked for anything

for I’M ON MY OWN

is the only truth now I’m carrying

A promise that i swear

A trust that i build

to never barge the boundaries

chant these words every time you sing

SELF LOVE it is before everything